Happy 100!!!! -jumps for joy- I can't believe this is my 100th entry. -falls over in shock-
I'm.. ahh!!! I should write another one of my Thank You speeches... Similar to this one. I'll get back to you about that... I'm also going to do another "100 things about me.." Or... maybe.. I'll do 200. And that will be my big update for my 200th entry. Maybe? Maybe.
Well, I can't believe I made it this far. So I had to write something. While talking to Jeff yesterday night, we ended up on the subject of us when we were together and when we broke up. I think he thought I was upset and he said something that like sparked this creative thing in my head.. So the fact that I sat down and wrote is thanks to Jeff.
And, thank to Jeremy for asking tons of questions. If he hadn't when he did, I wouldn't have had a topic. Haha.
Hmm. Thank to... the difference between bsb fans & nsync fans. Cause, that's my favorite part of the whole thing.
Thanks to the friend that kinda "inspired" this? Not really inspired. Just... thanks. Even though you are a pain in the ass sometimes and you've hurt me multiple times... you've helped me even more.
And, without further ado...
TaDa!!
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Earlier tonight, I started talking a friend. I've known him for a few months, but we never really tried to get close and "talk". Well, tonight we covered so much. A long list of topics, one being what I liked in a guy. I can not explain how hard that question was to answer. At least with traits or characteristics it was. I could give you a name and for me, that would be enough. But of course the people who don't know the person like I do would want more. I think I can honestly say I don't have a clue.
But I sure as hell can tell you what I don't want.
Maybe that's one of my flaws. I don't really consider the positives. Most of the time they are over looked. Negatives stick out like a backstreet boy fan in a crowd of nsync fans. To an outsider they might all be the same, but if you're close enough you definately know the difference.
When you first meet a person, you either like them or you don't. Then after a while when you get to know a person, you notice a lot more things. I notice the flaws first. Tons of small little flaws that make huge differences. I can guarntee that any boyfriend I've had and broken up with had at least one of these flaws. Some may have had multiple flaws. Maybe it was that they were clingy. Or they were serious. Whatever it was, it got to me. Considering that my longest relationship has only been two months, I'd say the flaws get to me pretty fast.
Soon, we moved onto why things like these got to me. That's when I realized it. By knowing WHO I want instead of WHAT I want, I made it so hard for guys to last. Because I know who I want, I compare everyone to him. The only person I think I've felt a kind of true love for. After being compared to someone like that, someone I might consider perfect, the most beautiful man in the world might look like a frog.
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I was hoping to add more, but just couldn't figure out how to do it. I don't like it too much either. It didn't turn out how I wanted it to. Matt read it and said he liked it. Sam wasn't on-line to read it like she said she would be!!!! -gasp- -tear-
I have a lot more ideas too. One particular one that jumps out at me, but I'm afraid to do it. It might get super emotional. Me super emotional is NOT something you want.
Ohhh. I want to post this just cause it's kind of funny. It's a friend of mine (Samantha) & myself talking. She got me to listen to "Old Skool BSB" and I was typing it out for her. Haha. And, yes.
Death2Poofu : I don't care who you are, where you're from, what you did, as long as you love me
missmaddie321 : WOOO.
Death2Poofu : *pauses music, on phone now* Aww, no more BSB
missmaddie321 : Darn!
missmaddie321 : I'd do anything for you, anything you want me tooo..... oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh hey baby!
missmaddie321 : Haha.
Death2Poofu : lol
missmaddie321 : From the first day that I saw your smiling face. Honey I knew that we'd be together forever. When I asked you out, you said no but I found out. Darling that you'd been hurt. You thought that you'd never love again.
missmaddie321 : I deserve a try, honey, just once. Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong. You are .....mumbles incoherently...... But honey he's nothing like me!
missmaddie321 : I'll never break your heart.... I'll never make you cry..
missmaddie321 : I'd rather die than live without... you.
missmaddie321 : Awwwwe.
missmaddie321 : I lurv this song.
Death2Poofu : *holds up lighter*
missmaddie321 : YES!
missmaddie321 : As I go....
Death2Poofu : I lurve it too
missmaddie321 : TIME. excuse me.
Death2Poofu : *itches arm*
missmaddie321 : By you....mumbles incoherently..... Girl that's the way love goes... Baby, baby. And I know you're afraid to let your feelings... and I understand, girl it's time to let go. Because... I deserve a try, honey, just once. Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong. You are .....mumbles incoherently...... But honey he's nothing like me darling why can't you seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?
Death2Poofu : lol
missmaddie321 : See all my mumbling? It's all AJ. I have NO clue what he says.
missmaddie321 : lol.
missmaddie321 : Even though he's my favorite...
missmaddie321 : Hmmm....
Death2Poofu : hmmmm..*itches head*
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I want to go party.
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Notice that I'm dragging this on? It's gonna be long. It's 100!!!! It's important!!!
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I can’t get out of bed today or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way to leave the love behind
I aint trippin, I’m just missin
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean
You kept me haingin on a string why you make me cry
I tried to give you everything but you just gave lies
I aint trippin, I’m just missin
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah
Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool there’s nothin I can do
I’m such a fool for you
I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My heart still breakin I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin of you
It’s true I’m stuck on you
Now loves a broken record that’s been skippin in my head
I keep singin yesterday why we gots to play these games we play
I aint trippin, I’m just missin
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah
Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My hearts still breakin I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin’ of you
It’s true I’m stuck on you
Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool there’s nothin I can do
I’m such a fool for you
I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My hearts still breakin I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin of you
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin of you
I don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you
"Stuck" By Stacie Orrico.
One of my favorite songs right now. -sigh- I MISS MY FRIEND. I was talking to Lisa about him and we ended up having a very... interesting conversation about him. Snipets are on my missmaddie321 info. Haha.
But serious.. MISSOURI?!?! What kind of crap is that?
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And I have the best ass. Jeff said so. :-P
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Hmmm. What else.. What else...
I WANNA GO PARTY.
I NEED A JOB.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR PRACTICE.. Esp. the band ones.. No comment.
Hmmmm... I think that's it for now. I'll give a more detailed update tomorrow. Or something.
<3 (100 entries later!) Meeee.