I do, but you don't think it's best we go our seperate ways... Tell me why I should stay in this relationship when I'm hurtin' baby? I ain't happy baby...
So tell me why... when I read my last journal entry, I began laughing so hard that I fell out of my CHAIR. Oh geez. Jared. Chuck E Cheese. Being like freaking in love with Matt. And, Zach. Oh, man. I fell out of my chair laughing. The last time I updated was in MARCH. I'm not going to give you this day by day playback, but we will sum it up. I quit CEC, dropped Jared, got a job at Shoney's and started dating a guy named Mark. And Zach and I are actually attempting to be friends. I'm really excited.
So this is the last week of school. Ahh. I'm excited but REALLY sad at the same time. I'm really going to miss Manda, Shelly & Laura. Those girls, especially Manda & Shelly have helped me through soooo much this year. I love my girls! Ahh! And Laura, one of my running buddies... I'm glad you and Manda got me running again, it's so addicting! Go you!
Today sucked. It was such a shitty day. I only had one test today: Algebra 2. I didn't finish, so I have to go do it some other morning. But my day started out shitty. I was going to be able to sleep in about 8:00, but I didn't. So I had to go and decided to go to the AP meeting in the morning. I got my summer assignments, then went to pick up my yearbook. FINALLY! So, I went to practice after that. Today it was just the new officers and new social officers (that are actually going to camp). Jess couldn't make it though, cause she went to go get her license.
Oh, I forgot to tell you. After officer tryouts, Megan & I decided to run for social officer. I was the only social officer from this year to run again. Everyone told me they were voting for me for president and I got it. :-D It was funny though, cause while we were in the middle of voting for pres, Gabby was standing next to me whispering to me that she really wanted me to get president. She got Treasurer. And Meggie got secertary. She wanted Vice President, but, she didn't get it... -tear-
Okay, but anyway.. back to my day. We went to practice, and ran a mile. Then we stretched a little. Social officers went off to the side and we started picking music for our home routine since Officers already have theirs done. I really wanted to dance to Volocano Girl, but everyone else wants to do a hip hop. So, we are still searching for a song. I got really aggravated and pulled the acrlyic off of one of my nails. Ack. During history, I got some of my make up work turned it. I still have a lot more to go. I missed too much school. GRrrr. I only got to see Mark for a few minutes today. I wanted to hang out with him after school, but he already promised some friends that he would go hang out with them. Which was upsetting, since tonight was my only night off all week, but I would rather be a girlfriend than a "responsibilty" like a certain someone claimed. (No, not Zach.) My algebra 2 test SUCKED. I didn't finish, so I have to go tomorrow morning. Theatre sucked too.
And since all of my anger had built up alll day, when Manda asked me what was wrong after school. I just totally went off on everyone. Like how certian people (that I won't mention names of) think they are soooo bad ass when they are really a total wuss putting on this huge act and talking shit behind everyone's back... Even their friends, and then trying to look all sweet and innocent.
Then I went off about how Tabatha pays so much attention to herself and her boyfriend/fiance (even though she's up on others guys nuts) that when she is being the "best friend" to other people (haha, too bad that's actully shelly & me...) , she's pissing them off to no end. Everyone is sick and tired of her turning everything into HER, even when it has NOTHING to do with her.
Then I got so mad that I got depressed and almost cried, I swear. I hate my freaking mood swings. I wish they would just GO AWAY. I went for sooo long without them and for some reason they are back now. At least they aren't as bad as before, to the point of wanting to roll over and die.
Tomorrow I have one test. I have my chemistry test. And then I have theatre. No "test". I think we are going to have early dismissal at 1:30.. So maybe I can see Mark tomorrow till I have to go into work... Maybe? Maybe? One can hope right? Good.
Well... I think I am going to sleep now. I'm really cold.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GABBY ON THURSDAY! (The father of my twins.. German Sven and Non German Julia.)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEGGIE ON FRIDAY! (My moose, my love!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CODY ON SATURDAY! (My brother will be 7! YAY!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HOLLY ON SUNDAY! (My cousin will be 7!)
<3Meeee.