A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for him, it's when he ignores you and still long for him. It's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say I'm happy for you.
I finally wrote something again.. It's not the best in the world, but I just needed to get it out of my system. If you know that journal address (the two or three people who do..), feel free to read it.
Last night I hung out with Afro Matt. We went to see Cheaper By The Dozen. Then we went to Chili's, and of course, sat in Mike's section.
When he came up, he asked where Stephen and Zach were.. We told him that Stephen was cut out and basically that Zach wasn't going to be joining us.. Mike turned to look at me and goes "You cut him off, didn't you?"
Through the whole dinner, Mike made comments about how weird it felt to just serve to the two of us instead of all 4. Matt & I had to agree. It just didn't feel right without Stephen & Zach.
Later on in the meal, Mike came to just talk to us for a while. He asked what happened to Zach and I somewhat explained. He nodded, said he really liked Zach but he seemed to be physically clingy. Then he sat there and described Zach exactly. It kind of scared me how accurate he was with his descripition.
OHHH, one of the funniest parts of the night... We have this big inside joke about throwing the TR sign and how people answer it to. Well, we were trying to get Mike's attention and Matt threw the sign. And Mike looked at us like, "What's up?!?!" We cracked up.
I did my patriot/thug walk again for Matt. With all the little adjustments that we had made. Haha... It's great.
He dropped me off at my house. I got online and talked to Stephen. We were basically "finalizing" plans and adjusting them so we can go see Mike.
After a while Matt K got on-line. We were supposed to do something last night, but he didn't call me. He had e-mailed me explaining what had happened and apologized. That's the most I've ever seen the word "sorry" in such a short e-mail. lol.
Tonight, he's going to pick me up after I get off of work. He's bringing me here so I can change and then we're gonna go hang out at his house for a while.
I guess that's it for now. Breakfast calls.
<3Meeee.