...to love is nothing. to be loved is something. to love AND be loved is everything...
So check this out.. If you thought I was already ghetto.. You should have seen my ass at work today. Daniel hooked me up with his hat and I had it on.. I'm beginning to talk to like ghetto fools I work with. Haha. I was ready to laugh my ass of.
But, let me move back a day.. Last nigt, I went into work around 6... Tabby got off at 8 and was waiting till I got off cause I was going home with her. Matt came in. I was really happy to see him until Tabby started hanging all over him. Then I started thinking about all this shit while I was cleaning and I got really depressed. Matt caught on and started trying to get me to smile and tell him what was wrong. I told him I'd tell him when Tabatha wasn't around.
Then Kenny asked me to go up to Kid Check. Okay, I could handle that.. Right as I get up to Kid Check, I see Tyler outside the door. My first thought, "Oh, cool. Tyler is here." Then I see this girl I don't know, with him. My next thought, "Wait a minute.. HOW is Tyler here?" Then my answer walks in the door. Zach. There to make me feel like shit. (Keep in mind that I already did...) So, here I am, faced with seeing him, dealing with his cousin's dirty ass looks and Tyler's sympathic looks. I started shaking. I was so stressed, so depressed, so mad. So, here we've got Zach standing at Kid Check, wanting to come in and Matt, who doesn't like Zach because he makes me feel like shit, in show room. I told Zach that I didn't think he wanted to be there, and he starts giving me attitude out the ass. So I calmly repeated myself. He got the point that Matt was there. I walked away from Kid Check (someone was up there with me, but I don't remember who, it's such a blur....) I walked away from Kid Check and toward Tabatha & Matt. Tabby has already seen Tyler, Zach & his cousin, jumps out of the booth and heads there way. Matt is giving me this worried look because I'm so freaked out. He jumps up when he realizes who Zach is and walks straight back over to Kid Check with me.
THEN, the phone rings.. It's Jared. So, I've got Jared on the phone, Matt right behind me at Kid Check and Zach in Game Room.. Awkward? Oh yeah. I told Jared what was happening, he understood and let me get off the phone, after I promised to call him back.
I'm still shaking at this point.
Kenny makes Zach, Tyler & the cousin leave. (His reason, "they aren't 18." I think it was just really obvious how half the people in the resturant didn't want Zach there, for different reasons.)
As soon as Zach left, I refused to look at Matt. Somehow, he got me standing right in front of him, between his legs and gives me this huge hug. He starts whispering to me that I can't let "asses" get to me in my heart, and not to let them see it.. I still won't look at him by this time, so he did the sweetest thing.. He put his hand on my face and slowly lifted it till I was looking at him.. He sat there with me for about 30 minutes, comforting me, telling me not to let him get to me, hugging me, kissing my head and just holding me. It made me feel better, but at the same time.. I was ready to cry. (Due to previous thoughts in the night) He made me feel tons better though.
Not long after that, he had to leave. So Tabby & I finished closing and stuff. Fun times.
We went to her house, and were supposed to jump in the hot tub, but it ends up not working.. So, we went upstairs and watched 2Fast2Furious. Then we talked for a while and went to bed.
This morning we ate breakfast and then went to work. I was at work from 12 till about 9. Fun times. Not.
I love Donald. And Daniel.
Oh, right before I clocked out at work, Jimmy made me go do Chuck. So, while I was dressed as Chuck, I walked over to our booth (where all the employees hang out when they are off the clock) and Daniel goes "That's the shortest fucking Chuck E I've ever seen.." And me, being the role model that I am, flick him off in the suit. Haha.
Right now, I'm sitting here, listening to country music, really wanting to tell Matt everything on my mind, or just being able to talk to Jared. Which I can't do either. -tear-
I'm off like a prom dress...
<3Meeee.